to church or not to church

Ok, so this posting may be a bit offensive to some, but...well....

A question I have been asking myself a lot is..how much of my life is supposed to be 'about' Church?I'm not trying to belittle the church or it's huge benefit in our lives. Nor am I trying to ignore the huge part of the Bible dedicated to the church and it's function....I'm just trying to find a balance in my life of church and not church.

Let me first say that I LOVE CHURCH. I was raised in 'the church' and I find comfort as well as the majority of my friendships and support there. However, I'm not sure that that's how it's supposed to be. I don't think that there 's error in finding our support there, but I'm starting to think that it's contrary to what Christ wanted from his followers to submerge themselves in the church's culture.

I've thought a lot over the past year or so that many of the things I find 'normal' about church, could easily be viewed as CRAZY by someone outside of the church culture.Ex: Puppets

I'm not sure when it was that I realized that I was drowning in church 'muck' and that I had ceased to long to reach people for Christ...let me emphasize for Christ...not for the church.

I just want to get back there...that's all. And I don't want to hurt anyone in the process...and I think that denying something that you have been so 'involved' in can be hurtful to some people 'left behind', but I think maybe that's what Christ was talking about it saying that we 'should' deny our Fathers and Mothers for him...
That when the situation presents itself, we have to follow Christ and just pray that we don't have to deny anyone in the process.